Update and possibly a rant... lets see...
AgonyProbably neither.
I've started writing again, a fan fiction. Something I haven't done in a while and it helps me vent a lot but at the same time it's annoying, I hate it as much as I love it. I want to write I want to keep writing forever, to express myself in words through other people, people that may not even exist, but finding the time is horrible.
So I'm starting University on the 16th of November and I'm really freaking out, like majorly but you know, hopefully I will be ok. It's annoying and it will be hard but I'll keep fighting and prove that I can do English and I can break free from the stupid repetitious and horrible jobs that I've been doing.
I'm not insulting anyone that enjoys the jobs I've had I just hate them, and the first part of the English thing we have to do (for the course) is on careers and using the website [link] I was told that I should be doing the things I've been doing for three years and the things I'm trying to escape. It's kinda made me a little bummed but you know.
I also have to write a journal about how I'm feeling and whats been happening within the English course. I hate writing journals when I have to. If there was a rule on DA that you have to write a journal once a week I would be so dead, but at the same time it's good. After working through some English crap that I seriously suck at I get to rant about it how ever I want, though I can't swear, and it's fine.
I might see if I can get someone to look at it every now and then or so, just to help me out. I'm hopeless at saying I have a problem but writing it down is easier. Guess that's why I write some really depressing things.
On a happier note in 9 days I move into college and have a dorm room so I can attend school which will be totally awesome and I cannot wait but you know... moving is a bitch. We are currently packing
's room so that he can have it all stored away when we go on holidays and I hate packing.After packing everything you only have to unpack it again. Grrr... Anyway, So that happens in 9 days 3 days after that
and I will have been together for a year and we are celebrating by going to sizzler, my favourite place to go despite the expensiveness. Neither of us can believe it's been a whole year, wow!Then we go on holidays on the 18th of December. I finally get to fly back and see my mother and father and all my friends in Canberra for Christmas. I cannot wait, I miss my parents and I really wanna catch up with my friends.
for one should be spending a night at least at mah parents house so we may celebrate and take happy snaps of our times together considering they are so far and few between.While in Canberra my parents are going to Perth WA to scatter my Nans ashes. I decided I couldn't do it, that I wasn't ready to say good bye forever and thankfully my mother accepts that and is just getting me to mind the house for her. I have to take them to the airport though and their flight leaves at like 5 am... how crappy is that... so early in the am
After they get back we go on to Muswellbrook for
's birthday. Lets see how many nights he ends up staying at his mates house. I feel like the odd one out when he does but I guess that's just part of having a partner, you need to put up with the lack off attention and idiocy when they are around the only person that made his school life deal-able.We are there until the 28th of January then we come back... the whole time I have to do school work but still a holiday if you ask me. I really can't wait though, it's going to be some good fun these holidays I just know it. Hopefully I will get to be all happy again instead of stressed and depressed though knowing my I wont be that lucky.
The I have another whole year to look forward to before I can see everyone again but hopefully I will be able to visit Canberra and they will be able to visit Toowoomba at some point during that year. Who knows... that's something to wait and see...
I should get off now though and get back to get ahead in class by working on the mass side of my course and proving to myself that I am still shit at fractions no matter how many times I try to do them and fail to do them... god damn I'm rusty.
Anyway off I go... much love to everyone and thank you for reading my random assed shit!
I feel better now!
- Lelle
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