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Good Again

Sun Dec 6, 2009, 12:07 PM
Yep everything is good again. Mind you, it's 6am and I haven't slept yet and there is no sleep in sight. I've got an assignment due today that I have to type at the library and once again I have to go and see centrelink about them giving me some money so I can aford a place to live while I study.

I guess I go overboard with a lot of things and I react on my emotion of that time. So to ~Raiton-Gian I am sorry. I know we've talked about what I said and everything so I wont talk about it here but I just wanted to say that I am sorry and I love you, alot. I'm so glad that you're here with me.

~Yomeko and =blood-sharingan Sorry I haven't been on msn lately. I promise as of today (right now infact) I will get my butt on msn more often even if it's only to talk to you guys. Mind you with the amount of random that have come to find my msn it might be the time for another new one. Sorry...

~superSHMUCK I hope everything is ok for you. Much love my sister.

=yeahshippo I'm so thankful to your words, you reply to me more then anyone else and thats great for me. I really appreciate it. Thank you so much. Oh and don't worry so much. I'm here if you need me :D

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  • Mood: Hungry

Alone

Mon Nov 30, 2009, 5:47 AM
I feel so alone up in Toowoomba 1200 km's away from all my friends. I'm missing 2 of my best friends 21st birthdays becuase I can't be there... I'm not with my family and I know only one person here. I need my own friends that I can hang out with but I dont have them... I feel alone and abandonded considering I dont even talk to my 'friends' in Canberra any more.
Well enough, I've over it... if I'm alone then I will be alone... I don't really want to have friends anyway.

On top of that I hate to say this but I really hate ~Raiton-Gian talking to a mate of his. I get jelous to put it simply. But seriously he pays attention to everything she does and now while I'm having trouble he's asleep. He messages her and put himself in danger for her and he wont even think about how it makes me feel. He told me that at one point she said if she wasn't dating her boyfriend she'd date him, and he liked that idea. How can i compete with someone he's been friends with for years when he;s only known me a year.

I HATE LIFE!

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  • Mood: Depressed

Quizzy thingy

Journal Entry: Sun Nov 29, 2009, 11:20 PM
  • Mood: Agony
  • Listening to: The World - Nightmare
  • Reading: Studying to Succeed (My English book)
  • Playing: Kingdom Hearts 358/2 (I wish)
  • Eating: dinner in 45 mins
  • Drinking: Green Cordial (With dinner)

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Quizzy Thingy

Hello, I stole this from :icondeathlymoongoddess:

ONE - Spell your name without vowels:
Srh Jn Drdy
TWO - Are you single?:
Nope. I'm with the lovely :iconraiton-gian:
THREE - Whats your favorite number?:
7 or 13
FOUR - What color do you wear most?:
Black
FIVE - Least favorite color?:
Green
SIX - Favorite candy?:
Anything really. I love sweet things
SEVEN - What do you smoke?:
Nothing, not anymore. Except for on the 13th of October I smoke one Holiday Blue in memory of my nan who died on the 25th of September 2008. Miss joo nanny
EIGHT - Are you happy with your life right now?:
I guess I am. Though there will always be more that I want ~Raiton-Gian keeps me happy
NINE - Anyone ever said you resemble a celebrity?:
Mum used to say I look like Brooke Shields... I doubt that now... :D
TEN - What is your favorite class in school?:
Theatre Tech, and Webdesign in College (High school) or Drama and math in Primary
ELEVEN - Do you shop at hollister/DC/Bluenotes?:
I dont even know what they are
TWELVE - How do you make money?:
Right now I don't, previously I worked as a storeman in a food wholesale company. fun fun.
THIRTEEN - Who is your best friend?:
My mum and ~Raiton-Gian All of my friends should know that I dont have best friends amoungst them because all it does is create fighting.
FOURTEEN - Where do you go to school?:
USQ (University of southern Queensland) Toowoomba campus (there are 3 campuses) In Australia
FIFTEEN - Are you outgoing?:
Sometimes
SIXTEEN - One word to describe you?:
Anxious
SEVENTEEN - Favorite pair of shoes?:
Something easy that I can slip on with no trouble... then again I love my F*ck me boots... mmm boots.
NINETEEN - Where do you wish you were right now?:
In Canberra visiting my mother.
TWENTY - What should you be doing right now?:
My assignment
TWENTY ONE - Do you have a crush on anyone right now?:
I don't think so I believe its gone beyond a crush

HONEST SECTION:
Honestly, what's on your mind right now?:
How sore my legs are... stupid crappy cheap razors...
Honestly, what are you doing right now?:
This quiz and talking to ~DarAntaris
Honestly, have you done something bad today?:
Yes put off my assignment again considering it's due in... in 6 minutes... fail!
Honestly, do you watch disney channel?:
I would if I could... I'm so immature
Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?:
My Mother when she woke me up. It failed I went back to sleep.
Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?:
Yep
Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?:
Sadly ~Raiton-Gian and my school work.
Honestly, do you bite your nails?:
Yes then I catch myself and stop myself but by then it's to late and I have to bite them off anyway
Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?:
I can see him... but yes I want to see mah mummie
Honestly, are you keeping a big secret right now?:
Nope not really... unless you count my mothers christmas pressant a big secret, I need to talk to my dad about that...
Honestly, do you have a friend you don’t actually like?:
Sadly yes,, I just like pleasing people to much :D

THE CANS:
Can you blow a bubble?:
Yups
Can you dance?:
I think so...
Can you do a cart wheel?:
Only one then my shoulder kills
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?:
Nope, dont like cherries to begin
Can you whistle?:
Yups
Can you wiggle your ears?:
I dont believe I've tried...
Can you wiggle your nose?:
No
Can you roll your tongue?:
I used to be able to but not so much now that I got my tongue pierced I still try a lot though, I will do it again.
Can you make a clover with your tongue?:
I used to... again not now...

ANGER SECTION:
What do you do when you’re mad?:
Snap, then get pissy at myself... good fun ask ~Raiton-Gian
What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad?:
Nothing I want to mention... wait I think maybe that would be kicked a guy in the crotch giving him a one in a million chance of having kids... and it was over a pillow... ^^'
Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?:
Yes...

CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out?:
Yes
Ever cried yourself to sleep?:
yes
Ever cried on your friend’s shoulder?:
Yeps
Ever cried over the opposite sex?:
Yups
Ever cried over the same sex?:
Yups
Do you cry when you get an injury?:
yes, not as much as i used to
Do certain songs make you cry?:
Yes at least the first time I hear it... like the 911 remix or heaven by DJ Sammy
Do certain movies make you cry?:
yes

HAPPY SECTION:
Are you usually a happy person?:
I guess
What makes you the happiest?:
~Raiton-Gian My Mother and my friends... oh and funny shits...
Does being with your friends make you happy?:
I just said that :D Yes
Do you believe in yourself?:
Yeah I guess
Do you wish you were happier?:
Yups
Is being happy overrated?:
Being only happy is :D
Can music make you happy?:
yes!
LOVE SECTION:
How many times have you actually had your heart broken?:
A few to many... I think at least 3 times.
Have you ever loved someone so much that you’d die for them?:
I do now...
Has anyone besides your friends and family ever said ‘I love you’?:
Yes to many people
HATE SECTION:
Do you actually hate anyone?:
yes
Have you ever been on a hit list?:
I dunno... anything is possible...
Are you a mean bully?:
I dont think so... ask ~Raiton-Gian He's around me enough
Do you hate George Bush?:
Yes
SELF ESTEEM SECTION:
Is your self-esteem extremely low?:
Yups
Do you think you're good looking?:
Nopes
Do you wish you could be someone else?:
Yeps
LOOK AT ME:
What is your current hair color?:
Golden brown with medium brown roots... stupid hair faded to golden brown and is growing medium brown... what the hell is with that...
Current piercings?:
Ears and tongue
Have any tattoos?:
Not yet
Straight hair or curly?:
To short really... it tries to curl but it's just not long enough
CURRENTLY WEARING:
What shirt are you wearing?:
My confussion shirt
Necklace(s)?:
~Raiton-Gian 's onyx necklace that i bought him
Shoes?:
None
HAVE YOU EVER:
Hugged someone?:
Yups
Been on the phone until the sun came up?:
Yes
Laughed so hard you peed in your pants?:
I know I've come close but the answer is probably yes...
Laughed so hard you cried?:
Yus i has
Got in a fight with someone?:
Yeah, I sat there and did nothing... woot...
THE LAST:
Person you talked to in person?:
~Raiton-Gian
Person you talked to online?:
~DarAntaris
Person you hugged?:
~Raiton-Gian
RANDOM:
Do you like surveys?:
Yeah
Do you get along with your parents?:
YYeps, much better now to. Mum and I are as thick as thieves and dad and I are getting closer
Do you have mental breakdowns?:
yes
CURRENT:
Current mood:
Headachy and hungry
Current music:
Green Day I believe, ~Raiton-Gian is in control of the music just changed to muse
Current hair style:
Side frindge with the back spiked.
Current crush:
My baby ~Raiton-Gian
Current thing I ought to be doing:
My assignment
Current windows open:
Firefox, VisualBoyAdvanced, Word pad (x3)
Current desktop picture:
Little white lies by *Nijuuni
THE DIDS:
Did you ever get into a fist fight in school?:
Nope
Did you ever run away from home?:
Yeps
Did you ever want to be a doctor?:
Yes
Did you ever want to be a fire fighter?:
Nope... wait... yes I was going to join last year with my dad
THE DO'S:
Do you know how to swim?:
Yeps, enough to save my life anyway
Do you like roller coasters?:
Nope
Do you own a bike?:
In canberra yes, but I dont really use it I use my mums
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows?:
Nope
THE DOES:
Does hair loss run in your family at all?:
I dunno
Does your car get good gas mileage?:
Hell no
Does your family have family picnics?:
We used to... not any more
THE HAVES:
Have you ever been on a plane?:
Yeps
Have you ever been to the ocean?:
Yeps
Have you ever painted your nails?:
Yeps
THE HOWS:
How tall are you?:
5'6 ish I think
How much money do you have on you right now?:
5 bucks
THE LASTS:
Last person you hung out with?:
~Raiton-Gian and Aaron
Last thing someone said to you?:
I love you - ~Raiton-Gian
Last thing you said out loud?:
I love you to - to ~Raiton-Gian
THE WHATS:
What are you listening to?:
Crawling - Linkin Park
What is the weather outside?:
Hot, to Hot
What radio station do you listen to?:
I dont know what its called
What was the last restaurant you ate at?:
Umm... Sizzler
What was the last thing you had to drink?:
Milk
What was the last movie you watched?:
Santa Clause 3

I Tag:
:iconsupershmuck:
:iconyomeko:
:iconraiton-gian:
:icondarantaris:
and
:iconyeahshippo:


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Update and possibly a rant... lets see...

Fri Nov 6, 2009, 5:00 PM
  • Mood: Agony
  • Listening to: Be Prepared - Lion King
  • Reading: Studying to Succeed (My English book)
  • Watching: Final Fantasy AC
  • Playing: Kingdom Hearts 358/2 (I wish)
  • Eating: Chinese once it heats up
  • Drinking: Tea
Yes I have decided to do something on DA for once in a blue moon and maybe just maybe it will be something interesting to people or something that just helps me.

Probably neither.

I've started writing again, a fan fiction. Something I haven't done in a while and it helps me vent a lot but at the same time it's annoying, I hate it as much as I love it. I want to write I want to keep writing forever, to express myself in words through other people, people that may not even exist, but finding the time is horrible.

So I'm starting University on the 16th of November and I'm really freaking out, like majorly but you know, hopefully I will be ok. It's annoying and it will be hard but I'll keep fighting and prove that I can do English and I can break free from the stupid repetitious and horrible jobs that I've been doing.

I'm not insulting anyone that enjoys the jobs I've had I just hate them, and the first part of the English thing we have to do (for the course) is on careers and using the website [link] I was told that I should be doing the things I've been doing for three years and the things I'm trying to escape. It's kinda made me a little bummed but you know.

I also have to write a journal about how I'm feeling and whats been happening within the English course. I hate writing journals when I have to. If there was a rule on DA that you have to write a journal once a week I would be so dead, but at the same time it's good. After working through some English crap that I seriously suck at I get to rant about it how ever I want, though I can't swear, and it's fine.

I might see if I can get someone to look at it every now and then or so, just to help me out. I'm hopeless at saying I have a problem but writing it down is easier. Guess that's why I write some really depressing things.

On a happier note in 9 days I move into college and have a dorm room so I can attend school which will be totally awesome and I cannot wait but you know... moving is a bitch. We are currently packing :iconraiton-gian: 's room so that he can have it all stored away when we go on holidays and I hate packing.

After packing everything you only have to unpack it again. Grrr... Anyway, So that happens in 9 days 3 days after that :iconraiton-gian: and I will have been together for a year and we are celebrating by going to sizzler, my favourite place to go despite the expensiveness. Neither of us can believe it's been a whole year, wow!

Then we go on holidays on the 18th of December. I finally get to fly back and see my mother and father and all my friends in Canberra for Christmas. I cannot wait, I miss my parents and I really wanna catch up with my friends. :icondarvon: for one should be spending a night at least at mah parents house so we may celebrate and take happy snaps of our times together considering they are so far and few between.

While in Canberra my parents are going to Perth WA to scatter my Nans ashes. I decided I couldn't do it, that I wasn't ready to say good bye forever and thankfully my mother accepts that and is just getting me to mind the house for her. I have to take them to the airport though and their flight leaves at like 5 am... how crappy is that... so early in the am

After they get back we go on to Muswellbrook for :iconraiton-gian: 's birthday. Lets see how many nights he ends up staying at his mates house. I feel like the odd one out when he does but I guess that's just part of having a partner, you need to put up with the lack off attention and idiocy when they are around the only person that made his school life deal-able.

We are there until the 28th of January then we come back... the whole time I have to do school work but still a holiday if you ask me. I really can't wait though, it's going to be some good fun these holidays I just know it. Hopefully I will get to be all happy again instead of stressed and depressed though knowing my I wont be that lucky.

The I have another whole year to look forward to before I can see everyone again but hopefully I will be able to visit Canberra and they will be able to visit Toowoomba at some point during that year. Who knows... that's something to wait and see...

I should get off now though and get back to get ahead in class by working on the mass side of my course and proving to myself that I am still shit at fractions no matter how many times I try to do them and fail to do them... god damn I'm rusty.

Anyway off I go... much love to everyone and thank you for reading my random assed shit!
I feel better now!

- Lelle

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Farewell Common Sense

Tue Oct 13, 2009, 3:08 PM
  • Mood: Gloomy
  • Listening to: Sun goes down
I am posting this because it's true! You should to!

Today we mourn the passing of a beloved old friend, Common Sense, who has been with us for many years. No one knows for sure how old he was, since his birth records were long ago lost in bureaucratic red tape.

He will be remembered as having cultivated such valuable lessons as:
Knowing when to come in out of the rain
Why the early bird gets the worm
Life isn’t always fair,

and maybe it was my fault. Common Sense lived by simple, sound financial policies (don’t spend more than you can earn) and reliable strategies (adults, not children, are in charge).

His health began to deteriorate rapidly when well-intentioned but overbearing regulations were set in place.
Reports of a 6-year-old boy charged with sexual harassment for kissing a classmate; teens suspended from school for using mouthwash after lunch; and a teacher fired for reprimanding an unruly student, only worsened his condition. Common Sense lost ground when parents attacked teachers for doing the job that they themselves had failed to do in disciplining their unruly children.

He declined even further when schools were required to get parental consent to administer sun lotion or an Aspirin to a student, but could not inform parents when a student became pregnant and wanted to have an abortion.

Common Sense lost the will to live as the churches became businesses and criminals received better treatment than their victims. Common Sense took a beating when you couldn’t defend yourself from a burglar in your own home without the burglar suing you for assault.

Common Sense finally gave up the will to live after a woman failed to realize that a steaming cup of coffee was hot, spilled a little in her lap and was promptly awarded a huge settlement.

Common Sense was preceded in death by his parents Truth and Trust, by his wife Discretion, his daughter Responsibility, and his son Reason. He is survived by his 4 stepbrothers: I Know My Rights; I Want It Now; Someone Else Is To Blame; and I’m A Victim.

Not many attended his funeral because so few realized he was gone.

If you still remember him, pass this on. If not, join the majority and do nothing.

(Printed in The London Times)

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